Why is it that I have so much motivation at school and when I'm out with friends (I mean like seriously, I don't eat when I'm out)
but when I get home, all that motivation seems to have gone out the window.
I just want to eat and eat and eat when I get home and its so hard not to. I don't understand myself.
Maybe I should just live at school. That would make everything so much easier.
But then I wouldn't have livejournal or anything.
I'm sick of making all these plans and not sticking to them.
I want this to work this time. So I've tried to convince myself that what mum makes for dinner is gross. It kinda worked, I actually made myself gag.
I've had 210 calories today and i DO NOT want to have any more.
I have alot of homework to catch up on so hopefully if I just focus on that all night, I wont be tempted to eat.
I have diet coke here. If I drink the whole bottle quickly, I'll feel full for a few hours. I'll start drinking it just before dinner time and I'll tell dad that I already had it. Oh the perks of having a dad who works all day shifts and a mum who works all night shifts.

I want to buy so many new clothes but NO, i cant, not until im the right size.
I have 31 days to lose at least 5kg, I NEED to do this. i CAN do this.
By the way, I'm 60kg today, down .5 from yesterday.

DO IT, DO IT, DO IT, K-J!!!!!